I heard it loud and clear.“Do nothing until you’ve read.” But…the cats are hungry and I need coffee and a shower…and the litter needs to be changed and the rabbit’s pads…and it’s TJ’s first day of school. I should go to the bus stop with my daughter... “Do nothing until you’ve read.” So here I am reading, not wanting to, but reading nevertheless, wondering what could be so important that everything must wait.
I read the words obediently, but without understanding. “The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer” and that means? Isn’t this archaic traditional lip service? But here I am… Scrolls and chariots and baskets with leaden covers. What is all this today in my time, in my world?
Jesus would have known the ‘Old Testament’ as a boy. As teacher Jesus would have taught the ‘Old Testament’. Did the descriptions that resonated within Him form in His mind; did He imagine who He either could become or would become? Did the outline for His adult life come from the imaginations of a young boy who had memorized the Psalms and Proverbs and the five books of Moses? Certainly the prominent psychologists of this era would have fun with that idea.
“Love truth and peace… Lo, your king comes to you; triumphant and victorious is he, humble and riding on a donkey, on a colt, the foal of a donkey…he shall command peace to the nations; his dominion shall be from sea to sea, and from the River to the ends of the earth.”
But the fact is, He got it right. He did the impossible by following every word and command. According to Moses who had prayed for a living example, He did it. Christ was the living answer to Moses prayer, and though I may not understand the words, the least I can do is follow Him and His Ways as an example. So I read as directed by The Spirit, and I study, reminding myself that in all the jobs of the world, there can be none so important as this.
When I first sat on the porch with my coffee and cigarette, I questioned whether I should quit the night job. I just didn’t want to do it anymore. But I heard “Do nothing until you’ve read.” Now I’m thinking that my decisions, any decisions, must be made from The Word and The Word of God or I am wandering in a desert of my own making.
So this I pray now, even though I’m not done reading: I pray that my life, or at least my day…this day…may be based on the Word Of God and nothing less. I am no saint, no holy infant of God, just a denim dressed working class single old lady that wants to end her life a lot better than she started life and a hell-of-a lot better than those middle years. Floundering sucks!
“As for you also, because of the blood of my covenant with you, I will set your prisoners free from the waterless pit. Return to your stronghold, O prisoners of hope; today I declare that I will restore to you double...”Here I am Lord. Do with me as You wish for I have returned…to my stronghold. Amen
But the fact is, He got it right. He did the impossible by following every word and command. According to Moses who had prayed for a living example, He did it. Christ was the living answer to Moses prayer, and though I may not understand the words, the least I can do is follow Him and His Ways as an example. So I read as directed by The Spirit, and I study, reminding myself that in all the jobs of the world, there can be none so important as this. 
So this I pray now, even though I’m not done reading: I pray that my life, or at least my day…this day…may be based on the Word Of God and nothing less. I am no saint, no holy infant of God, just a denim dressed working class single old lady that wants to end her life a lot better than she started life and a hell-of-a lot better than those middle years. Floundering sucks!