GC: That is the Peace, that only I can give in the midst of a restless world and surrounded by trouble and difficulty. To know that Peace is to have received the stamp of the Kingdom -the mark of the Lord Jesus Christ. My Mark…That Peace is loving faith at rest.
Another sleepless night. The humidity melted into the sheets. My flesh sweat. My thighs stuck together. And the fears caught up with me.
“It’s a game I’m playing, Lord. And I’m losing. I’m scared. There isn’t money coming in. How am I going to pay any of the bills? I’ve tried to ignore the facts. I’ve tried to put this all in Your Hands. But where are those Hands? Circumstances are still the same. I’m waiting. I am so scared that life isn’t really going to turn out OK.”
He’s the only one I’ve told…Him and the humid sleepless night at hand. I reached above the bed to turn off the light when a song came to mind. I began to hum, then sing. And though nothing had actually changed, somehow it was alright.
Hours later, I did turn the light off. My eyes hurt and it was time to sleep. I knew that not only were all things possible in God’s world, but that all my past activities, all the books I had read and notes I had taken, all the unproductive jobs I had taken to survive and give a home to my children had led me here, to the moment of sleep where indeed even for me, a child in God’s world, all things even what I dreamed, were possible.
P.S. Later that day, afternoon, a guest left me this. He really does care! I shouldn’t be surprised,but I always am.
I’ve tried to put this all in Your Hands. But where are those Hands? Circumstances are still the same. I’m waiting. I am so scared that life isn’t really going to turn out OK.” 
I had taken to survive and give a home to my children had led me here, to the moment of sleep where indeed even for me, a child in God’s world, all things even what I dreamed, were possible.